Blogging Today...

Hmm..another week has passed..today I read Vernon's blog...very interesting take on the MAN i once had the pleasure of singing under... yep..Vernon's sarcasm was indeed point-blank accurate..but he's usually right..and I should thank him for introducing me to Renaissance period polyphony... a genre of choral music I still very much like... looking at other people punya blog seems to be a favourite passtime of mine..yet I find difficult to match their frankness for revealing aspects of themselves...maybe I am not that sure of myself kan? Hm...something to ponder upon... I just found out today that ham don't last forever...had to throw a sizable chunk of it that has been lying in my fridge for the last month or so..so readers..please beware..ham will spoil like any other thing... yeah..that's about it for today.... and yeah..hopefully David Archulaeta will win American Idol this time round... funny thing I don't seem to like AF...

Always a friend; Never a Boyfriend

Looking back, I have finally realised a simple truth about myself and my relationships with the opposite. Yeah..simple truth, observable and highly comical or tragic whichever your viewpoint may be... and that truth is..(drum roll please...) is that girls are very comfortable with me as a friend or even a bestie or confidant....a surrogate brother but whenever I broached the can-we-be-more-than-friends? topic, they tend to react in two ways..either dissapear into the great limbo of past friends or shriek and don't want to see again. Well...maybe it's my destiny...despite all the talk "wait and the right girl will come along", "...don't worry..u are still young", "..you just have not found the correct one" and so on and so forth... it has become somehow, painfully clear to me...that perhaps love in that sense of the word is just not meant for me.. and I have accepted that fact...I have a niche in the great Order of relationships...that as a friend to my female friends... who would inevitably sms me when they are in need of a friendly advice or emotional pat on the back...call me for immediate reassurance that everything is going to be alright..and have me take them out to console them....help them with their assignments...be their driver...feed them..bla bla bla...the list goes on.. but the strange thing.,...u know is tat in all this giving I have no recieved anything yet.. how many of them actually remembered my birthday?.(Floey did..that's why I love her the way I do... miss u lots..lil sis)...how many know the lonely moments that I have to endure... and pass by..and yet come to their aid in the midst of my own travails..but it's okay...that's my role anyway.... I should not be complaining about this right? I mean... which guy does not want to have a bevy of female friends.. I don't really blame them for forgetting me sometimes...I am not reallt that memorable anyway...am not as cool as the other guys... am not as cute as the other guys...hmm...sometimes I wonder... what is so special about me anyway? hahaha...must be God's idea of really freakish cosmic joke...okay..let's give him talent in music and the arts but leave the programming needed for success with the opposite sex..hmm..must be it... But just maybe...my weight here is the issue..could be...like people always say..first impressions...well...most people that have met me always have a larger-than-life first impression about me... yeah...of the "see-how-huge-he-is" category.... So my point is...I am and should accept my destiny as it comes... right? oh well...to life then...

The End and Beginning of Things

The daylight is nearly at an end. Another day has nearly come to an end. Hmm... I learnt a few things about life today. The first is that when you have to go..you have to go... watching Mr. Chew taking his final step into immortality is an eye-opener. I mean..why let your body rot inside the earth when you have it cremated and all the ashes kept in an airconditioned columbarium. Life goes on. One may weep and mourn the passing of a dear one but life still goes one despite the loss. Concerning my students, one class actually kept quiet while I was talking. To me, that was quite meaningful, maybe they have realized the gravity of their situation and have come to remedy any wrong done by omission..anyway..I am grateful. Life goes on. It is another day already..hahahaa..forgot post the blog....anyway..here it is...

The daylight is nearly at an end. Another day has nearly come to an end. Hmm... I learnt a few things about life today. The first is that when you have to go..you have to go... watching Mr. Chew taking his final step into immortality is an eye-opener. I mean..why let your body rot inside the earth when you have it cremated and all the ashes kept in an airconditioned columbarium. Life goes on. One may weep and mourn the passing of a dear one but life still goes one despite the loss. Concerning my students, one class actually kept quiet while I was talking. To me, that was quite meaningful, maybe they have realized the gravity of their situation and have come to remedy any wrong done by omission..anyway..I am grateful. Life goes on. It is another day already..hahahaa..forgot post the blog....anyway..here it is...

Just a Quickie

I never once thought that a burger stall could have a waiting list of nearly an hour. Well..I went to the burger stall opposite the Bukit Beruang Petronas, wanting to sample the supposedly superb burgers there but what did I find? A long line of people waiting there, most obviously also 'tapauing" for their friends...I asked one of the servers whether I could order a cheese burger but he told me.... "Sori Bang..terpaksa tunggu satu jam lebih baru order siap!" I was like..okaaaay...wow...a line to even make McD have a run for the money...perhaps I should try my luck again tomolo night....

Rising to New Life!

Life is transient! Words from a new acquaintance, Mr. Tan from KYS which struck me as being so true and yet so anachronistic: From dust we came to dust we shall return. I know it's kinda Lenty and in season, yet it throws me back to meaning to living life again. I must admit, these last few months I have been rather disoriented. But then again, over the last few weeks, the sudden occurence of so much passing-aways around me has jolted me from my mental tardiness and procrastination. I did not know Mr. Chew that well though I have been handling his students for the last odd eight months as well. His death was a shock to me as well as to the rest of the department at KYS. One wonders as to when the Lord will take us up. Mr. Chew was one really talented arranger.The volume of his arrangements for the school ensemble left me wondering whether I would be up to the task of filling his shoes or not. Hmm....who knows..but then again....there's still the concert to worry about. Enough for now. Need to dress up and attend his wake.