Always a friend; Never a Boyfriend

Looking back, I have finally realised a simple truth about myself and my relationships with the opposite. Yeah..simple truth, observable and highly comical or tragic whichever your viewpoint may be... and that truth is..(drum roll please...) is that girls are very comfortable with me as a friend or even a bestie or confidant....a surrogate brother but whenever I broached the can-we-be-more-than-friends? topic, they tend to react in two ways..either dissapear into the great limbo of past friends or shriek and don't want to see again. Well...maybe it's my destiny...despite all the talk "wait and the right girl will come along", "...don't worry..u are still young", "..you just have not found the correct one" and so on and so forth... it has become somehow, painfully clear to me...that perhaps love in that sense of the word is just not meant for me.. and I have accepted that fact...I have a niche in the great Order of relationships...that as a friend to my female friends... who would inevitably sms me when they are in need of a friendly advice or emotional pat on the back...call me for immediate reassurance that everything is going to be alright..and have me take them out to console them....help them with their assignments...be their driver...feed them..bla bla bla...the list goes on.. but the strange thing.,...u know is tat in all this giving I have no recieved anything yet.. how many of them actually remembered my birthday?.(Floey did..that's why I love her the way I do... miss u lots..lil sis)...how many know the lonely moments that I have to endure... and pass by..and yet come to their aid in the midst of my own travails..but it's okay...that's my role anyway.... I should not be complaining about this right? I mean... which guy does not want to have a bevy of female friends.. I don't really blame them for forgetting me sometimes...I am not reallt that memorable anyway...am not as cool as the other guys... am not as cute as the other guys...hmm...sometimes I wonder... what is so special about me anyway? hahaha...must be God's idea of really freakish cosmic joke...okay..let's give him talent in music and the arts but leave the programming needed for success with the opposite sex..hmm..must be it... But just maybe...my weight here is the issue..could be...like people always say..first impressions...well...most people that have met me always have a larger-than-life first impression about me... yeah...of the "see-how-huge-he-is" category.... So my point is...I am and should accept my destiny as it comes... right? oh well...to life then...